Comments on: Failure – as in, I feel like one

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 02:58:44 +0000

I think you’re right David, Liz is trying to keep me from being sent on the mental health services pathway. I know I panic as soon as DBT and the mental health services are mentioned, but I’ve experienced their level of care, and it’s pretty woeful.

I’m trying to stay positive. Thank you.

Take care,
CG

By: Amy

Amy — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 15:52:40 +0000

Well, i have no internet til 11th december :D but i’m doing great :) i’m only using internet from my phone for the moment so won’t be around much

By: Paul

Paul — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 13:57:57 +0000

At this point, I think you have to tell her about your fears… I don’t see this as trust so much as self-protection. Be very clear.

By: David

David — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 06:36:19 +0000

Oh honey, I’m so sorry … it’s awful that you have to keep fighting for funding.

If your report of what Liz said was exactly accurate, it sounds to me like she wants to keep you out of DBT as well, and that her comment was meant as a heads-up that the two of you might have to figure out a way to keep you safe. I echo your other commenters … if you can find a way to tell her your fears, the two of you may be able to work better with the system. I know it’s a risk, and it’s so hard to trust.

But you’re not a failure, not by any stretch of the imagination.

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 03:57:16 +0000

Thanks (((Kerro)))

Take care of you,
CG

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 03:56:20 +0000

It’s so good to hear from you (((LostShadowChild))).

We know the program can help people, so we don’t want to dismiss it, but we know that in a group situation it wouldn’t work for us. I’m sorry it didn’t work for you, but I hope you’re receiving better care now.

Take care,
CG

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 03:53:38 +0000

I told Liz how badly the report was affecting me – I lost two days to the dissociation because of the anxiety, so she’s agreed to complete the report without me. I haven’t told her my fears regarding the DBT programme and mental health services, but will attempt to do that when I see her next. I know I need to be more open about my fears and anxiety, but that needs trust and I haven’t reached that yet.

Take care,
CG

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 03:48:59 +0000

Thanks Amy… It feels like a battle with ACC as they have such power over my access to help.

I felt pretty irrational when I was writing this :)
How are you? I haven’t seen you around much lately – yes, I’ve been looking :)

Take care,
CG

By: Kerro

Kerro — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 10:37:16 +0000

I don’t see you as irrational or a failure. But I do think you should talk to Liz about this.

I also hope you get the funding situation sorted out. It’s hard enough dealing with the issues in life that people like us deal with, let alone icing our not very nice cake with crap like this as well.

Take care, CG.

Kerro

By: LostShadowChild

LostShadowChild — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 10:24:26 +0000

Oh CG, we understand you so well !! and your post is not irrational at all.
We were in a hospital in 2007 where they used a DBT program. It was real horrible for us and we were triggered an Re-Traumatized very badly. Many survivors have problems with such programmes. Please tell Liz about the problems. I hope you find a way to receive the funding.
Sending many safe hugs to you (((())) Please take care.