Comments on: Lost for words

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 10:13:15 +0000

Hi Austin,

I hate derealisation. It’s one of the worst states to be in. It’s often part of the snowball effect you describe for me too…

It was interesting reading over the words that were written – their order and frequency. I know that this exercise was influenced by the problems that I am facing, but it was interesting to see how those problems influence the words used.

Thank you for commenting and take care,
CG :)

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 07:45:55 +0000

Give it a try Marj, they can be fun and healing…

Take care,
CG

By: Austin

Austin — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 09:11:35 +0000

For some reason the word derealization stood out for me, it nearly jumped off the page. Derealization makes me doubt not just my existence but the existence of everything around me. It keeps me questioning, prevents me from trusting. For me derealization leads to becoming jumpy which in turn has me belittling myself which in turn tires me out so I go to bed feeling like a failure. It is so “easy” to have one symptom lead to another and snowball. For me derealization is the snowflake before the avalanche.
Your word list speaks volumes to me. Free association can be helpful in so many ways especially when you read your list in the order it was written. I’ve also gone back to see if there’s an overall theme to my free association. Did the same subject come up several times? If so what does that mean for me and should I look at the subject closer? I think free association is a powerful tool especially when one feels so limited in expressing exactly how they feel.
You did well.

Austin

By: marj aka thriver

marj aka thriver — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 22:23:56 +0000

I understand that feeling. I think the exercise is a great idea. I’ve never done one of those tag clouds, but I may have to try it some time.

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:42:22 +0000

Thank you Ivory, using Wordle did help. I’m getting better at taking it one day and one moment at a time…

Take care,
CG

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:40:23 +0000

Thanks (((Kerro)))…

Take care,
CG

By: castorgirl

castorgirl — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:39:32 +0000

Hi Ones,

You said it well – we have no words when there are so many words inside shrieking to be released. It’s like they get stuck inside our head and we aren’t able to release them in any way. That’s why I used the Wordle tool, as a way to try and get them out.

I think all survivors have that irrepressible part inside, whether it be stubbornness, hope, will to survive or fight… there’s something in all of us that keeps us going.

Thank you for your comment…
Take care,
CG

By: Ivory

Ivory — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 14:23:16 +0000

Hopefully, your words will be light and happy soon. Sometimes, these feelings (words) just need to be addressed and maybe that’s what you have done with Wordle. I hope you have a better day today…

By: Kerro

Kerro — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 10:45:34 +0000

I love Wordle. It’s powerful, freeing, illuminating … and best of all, it’s fun!

I’m so glad you’re finding ways to let things out, hang in, deal with stuff going on. I know this is a tough time for you.

Hugs.

By: Ones

Ones — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 05:18:49 +0000

Ironic to have no words when there are so many words inside shrieking to be released.
From so many.
So many words.
To be spoken, written, expressed.
….Exposed.
So many words.
Too much fear and confusion.
Too many words.
Can’t hear them.
Won’t hear them.
Mush.
Hush.
But hey you, you are like me.
We both got that irrepressible part inside.
It never gives up.
It can see beauty.
It can help us.
TC
Ones