Collages for healing and understanding

Posted November 18th, 2009 by castorgirl and filed in Abuse, Art, Child abuse, Creative expression, Healing
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I’m trying something new – I’m submitting some artwork to the latest Blog Carnival Against Child Abuse.  The works below have great meaning for some within the system.  I’m a little hesitant about submitting them, but want to support the carnival and the cause it is paying attention to this month – World Day for the Prevention of Child Abuse.

Nightmares
Nightmares by castorgirl on Polyvore.com

This is one of our common nightmares… trying to escape from a feeling of drowning and being pulled toward a monster or clown.

Layers
Layers by castorgirl on Polyvore.com

Layers of dirt, abuse and pain pile up to create a warped view of the world.

Story in her eyes
Story in her eyes by castorgirl on Polyvore.com

What story do the abusers see in their victims eyes?
Do they see anything, or are they scared to look?
I wonder if the look in a victims eyes has ever haunted them or kept them awake at night?

Alone again

I’ve just dropped the mother off at the airport.  She agreed to go home last night – so she doesn’t put me through more “torture” (her words).

I feel like the worst daughter ever.  I know she doesn’t mean any harm and she was trying to help, but it wasn’t working.  When we woke up this morning, I thought maybe I’d made a mistake and she should stay…  But then on the way to the airport she was talking about the cold snap that has come up the country and how it would hurt all the lambs (yes, I can’t even type what really would have happened to them).  I don’t watch the news at this time of the year because I know they will show the horrific shots of the lambs in trucks.  In my world, no lambs get hurt…  Most people would realise that you shouldn’t talk about cute animals being hurt to someone who is DID and suicidal, not so my mother.  This is why I’m sure that she really doesn’t understand DID or me.  She doesn’t intend to be cruel or nasty, she just doesn’t realise the implications of her words.

Because of her words, this is how Sophie was feeling last night…  It’s bad when one of our most high functioning and optimistic one does a collage like this.

Untitled
Untitled by castorgirl on Polyvore.com
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On a good note, we chatted to a hilarious Scotsman for about 2 hours last night as a way to distract ourselves.  He teaches Psychology and World Religions at a University and was a real laugh… M enjoyed sparring with him.

Gift from a friend

Posted September 21st, 2009 by castorgirl and filed in Art, Creative expression, Friends, Good stuff
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Today I went onto Polyvore to do a set as a coping mechansim, and found this gift from LostShadowChild instead…

for castorgirl

for castorgirl by LostShadowChild on Polyvore.com

Thank you… Thank you so much.

LostShadowchild, I hope you don’t mind me adding it here.  If you want me to take it down just let me know :)